hurting friendship

WHAT do you do when you realize that all you ever wanted was what you always had? somehow knowing i'm missing makes it hurt so bad. When I needed some time away, you moved on like you should. I guess it took me too long to see that what we had was good.you tried to let me again and trust me like before. I really would give anything to re-open that door. I knew what I wanted was you. Too bad for me, today is no less true. I never imagined that one day we would really be apart. just know that no matter what I do, no matter who i'm with you always in my mind.

I never expected this to happen I never wanted to make space between us but nevertheless I can fix what's broken and our friendship to somehow last. we both know that misunderstood each other and that our friendship became unstable but we can't deny that we both miss each other yet being friends again it isn't impossible but our own pride sets us apart n this can be prevented by understanding the feelings in our heart and once again we will be reunited. I want us to be friends again and hug each other in a count of ten.

I asked for the truth, but you lied in my face. i told you a secret, and you ran off to tell anyone who would listen. I told you all the pain that my past caused, and so you blabbed all of my flaws. I don't know why you I ever called you my friend. you would only pretend.

The moment when your so called best friend betrays you. Betrays your trust and every bit of faith you had in them. They leave you with the memories. The memories that keep come flooding back which brings tears to your eyes every time. It makes you doubt whether they ever really were a best friend or just a jerk disguised as a best friend!I used to miss you and the way you would just somehow make my day when I saw you and everything you said and did was the highlight of my day you would walk with your arm around me or just hug me randomly. And now I've realized about a year too late that you used me and now I don't miss you but I miss the person I thought you were.

I think the absolute saddest thing is when you really truly believe you have a friend in someone, and they backstabber you. It's heartbreaking isn't right? sitting there wondering what you did to deserve it after investing so much time and love into a person but why is it that we sit there truly affected and hurt but the other person easily walks away like nothing ever happened? I'm someone who constantly forgives but maybe, sometimes we have to give on people. not because we don't care anymore, but because they don't. 

It really hurts that we are not friends anymore. e walk pass each other in the hall and it did't used to be like that. It hurts to keep all the unspoken words I did't finish telling you when we talked face to face because I was too sad and now I don't even know if I want to tell you still. Knowing that you probably don't care anymore. I meant to tell you the future looked bright, but all of a sudden we got fight.

dear friends,
sorry. I know we fight but who does't?we are't perfect. we're gonna fight sometimes. but I'm never going to stop loving you, no matter how much we fight about. I just want to let you know that I love you and the reason I'm apologizing, whether I started it or not, is because I love you more than I love my pride. I would rather lose a stupid argument than lose you.

life is too short,grudges are a waste of perfect happiness, laught when you can, apologize when you should and let go of what you can't change.

you,can always say sorry, but the real apology is when you hear the sadness in their voice and see the look in their eyes.and you realize that they have hurt themselves just as much.

Jatuh cinta!

aku sudah jatuh cinta sama ini CERITA!haha

episod 1 :)

episod 2 :)

episod 3 :)

ditinggalkan

oh sedihnya perasaan.aq nk cte psl ksedihan ditinggalkan untuk entry kli ny n of course pending sbb kejadian berlaku dah lepas dan aq seperti biasa baru nk update.haha

cter dy cmni , mlm tu aq g kls ctu then classmate aq pun cuit cuit manja gitu (ingt sweet sgt la main cuit2 gitu?).dy ckp miss bel nk pndh n y mnmbhkn kezutan aq ialah miss tu last day esok harinya.tanjat aq tw.mula la kesedihan melanda.aqkn x boleh kne tinggal tinggal begini!sampai hatimu kassim selama! :'(
berdrama sudah.miss tu nme dy bkn kassim selamat.dah nama pun miss xkn la mk dy nk p taruk nama jantan ceq oiii.

jadi mlm tu berbncng la kami2 ini untuk membuat satu suprise untuk beliau.mcm2 la jugk jd mlm tu.plan tu plan ni siap masam muka lg.awat la pi mkn asam cuba pi mkn gula kasi manis sikit muka tu kan?

pada hari kejadian:-
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aq da start mls nk menaip ni jd aq nk ltk gambar j kasi korang tgk :)

ni la miss bel aq,Miss nadiah fatehah!comel kan?mksud aq y belah kanan y pegang pinggan tu.huhu

ni pulak hero dkt kelas aq

ni group datinz2 :D

                      yang ni pulak perlu ke mcm tu?x matang betul!(hanis sambil buat muka matang dy)

makan time!

sbnarnya nk tunjuk ayam tu,tp x nmpak ayam pulak :P

yang ni pulak hsil tgn y plng bermakna sgt bg aq.bayangkan dlm mse 30 mnit dgt xde idea semua dan inilah hsilnya.terima kasih min anis n atin :))

tgk jgn x tgk :)
suka?terima kasih :)
x suka?kesah pulakk aq? -,-

qina

the end of 2012

assalamualaikum :)

nmpk x? nmpk x title post ny? kalau nmpak sedih kn sebab da hbis dah 2012 ni. kalau x nmpk x lme dah la tu. huhu

ramai yang post kt fb y bertweet pasal azam baru untuk 2013.and aq seperti biasa pending.da 2013 baru terhegeh hegeh nk update.

aq x fikir lg azam baru tu.tp rasanya nk y lbih baik dr tahun ny :) harapnye :)

2012 agk bermakna jugak untuk aq.dr awal tahun sampai la nk hujung tahun ny dr happy sedih marah pedih duka parah pilu senyum masam ap lagi?mcm2 ada!tp kalau nk citer sume y jd setiap masa n detik mmg sampai hujung tahun 2013 xkn habis la dah tu blenye nnty nk cter psl 2013 kn?

*setelah 10 minit xde idea nk tulis apa :( hurm

okey jd aq nk bg penghargaan sikit dekat orang orang yang sayang aq :)

soalan nye di sini ada ke?okey fine xde kn.so sbnrnye untuk orang2 y bermkna dalam hidup aq.

Aziz's family.

buat ibu n ayah y paling kakak sayang terima kasih untuk segala galanya.buat ibu yang dah gadaikan nyawa mengandungkan kakak lahirkan kakak susukan kakak berjaga siang malam jaga time kakak sakit terima kasih sgt2.

buat ayah yang sentiasa cool terima kasih bg makn pakai kakak walaupun kakak bukan ank y baik.y selalu buat hal,yang selalu buat masalah,yang selalu sakitkan kpale ayh dgn ibu,yang selalu gaduh dgn adik2 y selalu habiskan duit x pandai jimat :) dan semua yang selalu kakak buat.kakak minx maaf dr hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki :'(

buat satu stunya adik perempuan yang aq ada :) si cantik manis ni la y paling faham aq ble aq x keruan.eceh.angah terima kasih sgt sbb kau bnyak ad dgn kakak,y slalu dgr cter sedih kakak,cte karut marut kakak lawak bodoh kakak.kau y selalu ad nk dgr ble kakak baran bebel pok pek walau pun kakak thu kau terpaksa dengar.sbb ble kakak tnye balik ap y kakak ckp kau tak thu pon,terima kasih angah sbb hbiskan air liur kakak.angahhh,kakak syg sgt dkt kau.tahniah sbb dpt banggekn ibu n ayh  dgn kputusan cemerlang pmr kau tu sbb kakak x dpt mcm ap y ibu ayah harapkan.angah kakak minx maaf sbb dulu kcik2 kakak slalu pukul kau slalu ejek gigi kau.hahaha selalu buli kau buat kerja mcm2 lg.angah jgn tinggalkan kakak sorang2 tau sbb kakak perlu kau :)

buat abang superhero kakak,thnx sbb sudi jd adik kakak.jadi anak y baik okey.gne motor y ayh bg elok2.angah ashik kol j ngadu pasal kau.bleja rajin2.tolong ibu buat kerja rumah n please jd superhero terhebat kakak :)

buat adik bongsu kesayangan merangkap boboiboy kakak tahniah rsult upsr tu.blaja rajin2.jgn nakal2.nk msuk skolah mnengah dah,xnk la nangis2 jerit2 dah manja2 tu ikut time.pasni nk mkn amik nasi sndiri tw :) kau pnye perangai boleh buat kakak sakit jantung tapi tu y buat kakak syg kau dik :)

next!

to my dindong thanx a lot sebab slalu ad time susah senang sedih happy n y slalu bersusah payah untuk aq.thnx sbb sabar dgn kerenah kegedikkan kepelikkan ap lg?huhu.stay okey?please!

untuk kawan2 yang ad dengan aq,semua terima kasih!qina mnx maaf untuk salah y qina da buat :) terima kasih sebab jd kwn qina!

zati n sha roomate terhebat :)

ika ira jiran sem 1 terbaikkk :)

 hanisah huri a.k.a madu tercinta merangkap bestfren xsudi aq :)

anis thnx a lot jd kwn qina.thnx slalu layan qina,tlg qina,kne marah dgn qina,sabar dgn qina n please terus jd kwn qina.qina syg anis :)

member2 sengal tensyen sedih gembira jiwang gedik bersama,nmpak x gmbar korang paling besar di sini?

nik a.k.a madu pertamaku :)

mimah a.ka roomateku tercinta :)

min a.k.a tensyen sambil garu kpala :)

yani :)

 

x lupa jugk membe sekelas aq.kang nk mention sorang2 sampai esok x hbis kn?

 eh!x lupa jugk kt mk tiri kesayangan rafeah buang :)

thnx kak peah sbb jaga ank tirimu dgn baik sekali:)

ny j la y stillad dgn aq wlpn da msuk 2013.smoga tahun baru membawa makna y besar dlm hidup aq n harap sgt thun baru ny akn lbh baik dr thun sblumnya.

ok disebabkan masa taip ny tengah hujan maka cuaca y sgt bez ny membuatkan mata aq nk tertutup.nnty ble aq rjin aq update la.kalau x aq biar j blog ny usang d mkn dek anai2.haha

dah x twu nk ckp ap xde idea!k,bye :)

qina:)